Hey all...I haven't posted in a while because I am trying to not think about my face so much, but I'm just feeling especially sad today. It has been over 5 months since my skin damage occurred. My skin seems to fluctuate day to day (I realize that is normal...). Some days I will think it's getting better, and then other days, like the last few days, it seems like it looks worse than ever. I guess 5 months is still considered early, at least I hope it is. I am trying to remain positive and hopeful, and some days I truly DO feel hopeful, and even kind of happy and able to forget about my skin for a bit. But why, because my face still looks awful. I feel like the more time passes, and with little to no improvement, I lose more hope. I have seen some changes for the better, but they don't stick, they always seem to worsen yet again and my skin goes back to what it was or worse. Does anyone else notice this happening? Anyone who has had healing, did your skin go back and forth like this and eventually heal, anyway? I looked at my face today and my pores looked huge, my skin looks disgusting to me and I hate it. I am so mad at myself for what I did to my skin. I keep thinking how happy I would be if this never happened. I have so much going for me in my life, yet my skin makes me feel miserable a lot of the time. And even when I don't feel completely miserable, my skin is always in the back of my mind. Sigh. I just want my old skin back. This sucks so bad. Some times I think of what things will be like in a year or more, and it makes me feel better because I imagine in a year I will have to have had SOME kind of healing. But who knows, maybe I won't. I don't know. I just had to rant. I'm in a depressed crying mode today and have nobody to talk to about this. Thanks if anyone reads this.