Well, I have a FEELING it has gotten slightly lighter. It is definitely less red, yeah, but the level of darkness hasn't changed much. 1 month ago my skin was more red from trying some terrible mask, anyway. So the redness was probably going to go away, anyway.
I think some lighter discolorations have faded, but the dark square near my mouth does not seem to budge.
I haven't really paid attention to texture. I know I have very deep acne scars on my cheek that the dermatologist said even laser will not completely remove. By now I'm fine with the acne scars, as long as I would get this damn discoloration off my face! I didn't need my face to look even worse than before.
It is actually possible to blame yourself for acne scars as well... for example, thinking I should've treated the acne before it got so bad that it caused scars. That's why I had the laser, to correct my mistake. Well I feel stupid now, don't I?
Sometimes it feels like it goes like this: regret thing -> try to correct thing -> make things worse -> regret making things worse-> try to correct making things worse-> further regret. The further you get, the more accepting you are of getting back even one step. I dunno, sometimes when I've felt like my face is better, I start worrying about some scars on my scalp that I got a while back. Sooo... the timeline goes like this: acne scars, scars on scalp, discolored spots on face. If the discolored spots get better, I start worrying about the scars on scalp. If the scars on my scalp get better, then I will start worrying about the acne scars again. Probably.
I guess my brains just fixate on correcting the newest mistakes. So how to stop obsessing about the discolored spots? Make a brand new mistake! Obsess on that. Yeah...